A Moment’s Peace

It’s 1 o’clock in the morning and I should be sleeping.  But I’m not.  I’m sitting at the computer listening to the clock tick and the soft breathing of my baby’s sleep. It’s quiet.  As a mother of 3 boys it’s so rare to experience near silence. I’m loathe to surrender to the sleep I truly need, because I can’t imagine not cherishing these few precious moments. Moments when I can think clearly. Moments without interruption. Even the gentle hum of the computer’s fan – a sound I rarely notice amidst the din of daily life – is like a gentle melody to me now.  So soft and quiet.  The lights are low and everyone sleeps but me.  I close my eyes and simply relish the quiet, the restfulness of the moment.  I consider taking a bath but the loud rush of water filling the tub would disturb the peace that floats like a thick fog in each room of the house.  I think to read a book, but reluctantly dismiss the idea as irresponsible.  It is late and the children will arise at their usual hour, blissfully ignorant of the sleep I sacrificed for just a few moments of quiet.  A few moments of peace.  With a sigh I rise and quietly move through my nightly routine, then take myself to bed.  As I lie with my head on the pillow I pause once more, staring into the darkness, listening to the quiet of the night.  I tell myself to drink it in.  To remember this feeling.  Then I close my eyes and accept the coming of a new day.

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About heartmama

Hello, my name is Kathleen. My husband Luke and I were married in 2001 and we have 3 wonderful bio-sons: Ethan, born Oct. 2005, Quintin, born Feb. 2008, and Liam born June, 2010. We are looking forward to the day when our daughter(s) will join our family.
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